Sick love
Thought this pit in my stomach
empty feeling
was cause i was hungry
Thought this dizzy and weak
uneasy feeling
was cause i had a headache
I thought this pain in my side, felt like someone took the wind out of my life
was cause someone knocked me over
I thought this zombie like, stuck emotions
stiff thing I got going on
was cause I didn't get enough sleep
but then I remedied those feelings
I ate, drugged up, relaxed, laid down, took a nap
woke up
and realized this is was those r&b songs were talking about
when your heart is heavy and the air is thick
when your constantly thinking and suffering
This is what it is to be love sick
Got the memories on replay
tears gathering at eyes corners
Cant eat
Cant sleep
Vomit, trying to throw you up and and out of my system
wipes face, and stares at the mirror
not really looking in the mirror, for who is me
the picture is convoluted
Look at what the fuck fate did.
forced smiles
shrugs shoulders
no answers
just lost
still wondering
lonely arms
longing lips
feeling like a fool
sitting
staring
counting down
circles round and round
Endless rollercoaster
mania
depression
learned lessons
not
confused faces
brows furrowed
spontaneous half smiles
regular frowns
the are you okay's
you dont look good
thats cause i just dont feel good
Living just to get by to the next day
Going through the motions as clocks are ticking in the background
feeling every moment, long drawn out
life is passing
fall into slumber to be taken away
dreams and the past seems so pleasant
Forever damaged and never the same
whimpering again
damn Just finished
Hate this feeling
get wasted
immunity it gives
truce comes with the numbness
Then feeling resurfaces
lock me in a mental institution
evidence of my insanity
feel so crazy
BABY...
This is kind of dark for me. I was trying to capture the essence of illness and the feeling that one feels with love lost. Its crazy how emotions can translate into physical pain. I want to expose the poignancy of how love lost causes a gamut of emotional turmoil...It is very obvious is this poem, nothing just suggested... In the same way those feelings and pain are very real.